Memories & Ghosts

by Mark Ayling

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YOU INFLICT PAIN, YOU WEAR THE CHAINS CONFLICT IS TOUGH NON-CONFLICTING THOUGHTS ARE JUST ENOUGH TO MAKE YOUR NAME STAND OUT FROM ALL THE OTHER PAWNS IN THIS NEVER ENDING WARZONE SHOOT TO KILL, YOU KNOW THE DRILL KEEP PUSHING FORWARDS THROUGH THE TREES THERE ON THEIR KNEES, SURRENDERED WAITING FOR THE COWARD'S DEATH YOU THINK THEY DESERVE IN THIS NEVER ENDING WARZONE THE CHEERING CROWDS TO WELCOME HOME THE HEROES BRAVE, THE WALKING DEAD THE WOUNDED, FED ON LIES AND THE SWELLING NATIONAL PRIDE YET STILL THE SCREAMS CUT THROUGH YOUR DREAMS YOU'LL NEVER REST, YOU WERE THE BEST NOW YOU ARE FADING LIKE THE REST CAN BARELY MOVE TRAPPED IN THIS NIGHTMARE IN YOUR NEVER ENDING WARZONE IN YOUR NEVER ENDING WARZONE
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THROWN INTO MY LIFE LIKE A STRANGER ON A TRAIN ONCE YOU STEPPED OFF, WE WENT OUR SEPARATE WAYS AND I NEVER GOT TO SAY GOODBYE I REALLY WISH I'D TRIED FOR ONE BRIEF SHINING MOMENT IN TIME THE WORLD WAS AT OUR FEET, FLYING SO HIGH WE WERE AIMING FOR THE TOP TO STAND SO TALL AND PROUD BUT BENEATH OUR FEET, THE PAVEMENT WAS COLD AND EMPTY BLACKENED WITH VANITY CRAWLING WITH FAILURE WORN AWAY BY THOUSANDS THAT PASS BEFORE ME BY THOSE THAT PASS BEFORE ME
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DARK ALLEYWAYS OF MY MIND WILL BE OVERGROWN WITH TIME BARBED WIRE FENCES HOLD ME IN THESE SIGNATURED WALLS OF STONE THERE SHE STANDS SPIRIT ON THE HORIZON SEARCHING ACROSS THE LAND A MISTY PATH THROUGH DEAD TREES ENCROACHING DARKNESS HOLDING ME BLINDLY STUMBLE FOREVER ON FOLLOWING HER LONELY SONG THERE SHE STANDS SPIRIT ON THE HORIZON CALLING ACROSS THE LAND PILES OF RUBBLE WHERE WALLS ONCE STOOD SMOULDERING SKELETONS ALL THAT'S LEFT OF THESE WOODS LIKE A CURSE LIFTED, THE EMPTY DREAMS GONE AN ENDLESS COLOURSCAPE IN THE LIGHT OF THIS NEW DAWN THERE SHE STANDS SPIRIT ON THE HORIZON TAKING ME BY THE HAND
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THIS QUIET DESOLATION SEETHING DESPERATION WITH UNFULFILLED DISCONTENTMENT A GROWING RESENTMENT A PATTERN FOR LIFE WITH EACH USELESS GENERATION THIS DARK TWISTED LANDSCAPE AN ARMY OF BROTHERS HOLD NO SENTIMENT FOR STRANGERS THE BITTER LOOKS A CURSE ON THE WORLD FROM BEHIND FRIENDLY EYES NOT LEAST TO ONE ANOTHER BY THE SIDE OF THE ROAD A LONE CANDLE FLICKERS A BEAUTIFUL FLOWER WRAPPED ROUND BARBED WIRE JUST ONE MORE REMINDER OF EVERYTHING WE HAVE LOST JUST ONE MORE REMINDER OF EVERYTHING THAT YOU'RE TO BLAME FOR HERE LIE THE REMAINS OF EVERYTHING THAT'S DEAD TO ME
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TIME DRIFTS BY SO SLOWLY NOW TIME, AT THE SPEED OF SOUND BUT I KNOW NOW THAT YOU ARE WAITING A DREAM TO CLING TO, FOREVER BOUND I'VE SEARCHED FOREVER THROUGH MY LIFE AND ONLY FOUND A SHALLOW AND EMPTY FORM AND I KNOW NOW THAT YOU ARE WITH ME WAITING FOR THE PERFECT RAGING STORM BUT STILL THE EMPTINESS RETURNS WHEN I'M ALL ALONE EMPTY, LIKE A HUNGER PAIN GNAWING AWAY DEEP DOWN EVERY FRACTURED COMMUNICATION RUNNING ME INTO THE GROUND AND EACH SOFT LITTLE WORD YOU SAY SPINNING ME AROUND SOMEDAY SOON WE'LL BE TOGETHER ONCE WE'VE SHED THE WEIGHT OF THE PAST AND I KNOW NOW THAT YOU ARE WITH ME FOREVER IN MY ARMS
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THE NEON LIGHTS REFLECT OFF ROWS OF SHOP WINDOWS LIKE RATS IN A MAZE, THE RELENTLESS MARCH OF DESPERATE FEET ROW UPON ROW OF NEVER ENDING TRINKETS A THOUSAND BLANK EXPRESSIONS, SPOILT FOR CHOICE GIFTS FROM THE GODS OR A SWEAT SHOP IN TAIWAN? A CHILD LABOUR FACTORY HELD AT GUNPOINT BUT THAT'S OK JUST SO LONG AS WE HAVE EVERYTHING THAT WE WANT ON SKELETON BROADWAY THE OFFICE BUILDING GLOWS BLUE SO MANY BLOODIED HANDS OUR MONEY HAS TO PASS THROUGH TO BE PLACED IN THE POCKETS OF TERRORISTS AND REBELS AND ONWARDS TO FUND MASS EXECUTION AND THE RAPING OF THE BLACK BLOOD THAT RUNS THROUGH THE VEINS OF THE WORLD FROM EVERY BLAZING DESERT TO EVERY FREEZING ROCKY SHORE FROM DALLAS TO DARFUR IT'S USED AS A WEAPON AGAINST THE POOR BUT IN MY TOWN IT'S ALL ABOUT STATUS AND WHO'S GOT MORE THEY'LL BUY UP ALL THE LAND AND START WARS WHERE WE WON'T SELL THEY'LL TURN SCHOOLS INTO DUST AND SEND THE FUTURE TO HELL THEY'LL BUY PEOPLE'S LIVES, OR TAKE THEM FOR FREE JUST TO ADD ANOTHER POINT TO THE GLOBAL ECONOMY GIFTS FROM THE GODS OR PUTTING GREED ABOVE NEED? AS THE WORLD STANDS BACKS TO THE WALL, BLINDFOLDS ON BUT IT'S STILL OK JUST SO LONG AS THEY HAVE EVERYTHING THAT THEY WANT AND THEY SLEEP WELL AT NIGHT IN THEIR SELF IMPOSED PRISONS IN A ROOM WITH A VIEW OVER ROWS OF SHOP WINDOWS THE RATS IN THE MAZE NOW HOPELESSLY LOST THE SHALLOWNESS AND SHAME OF THIS SHIT I SEE AROUND ME CAN ALL BE YOURS FOR THIS MODEST FEE
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A MILLION PUBLIC FRIENDLY SOUNDS SO FAR FROM THE UNDERGROUND TRUE REBEL WITHOUT A CLUE I JUST CAN'T STAND TO BE A PART OF THIS SCENE YOU SAY IS 'COOL' 4/4 TEENAGE ANGST TO DISGUISE A FASHION STATEMENT OVER ALL SEE YOURSELF AS SOMEONE ELSE 70'S/80'S IN REVERSE WEAR THE DISGUISE AND PLAY THE PART YOU USED TO PLAY WHEN YOU WERE SAFE IN THE KNOWLEDGE WHEN YOU THOUGHT THAT YOU WOULD BE THE NEXT BIG THING NOW ALL THAT'S LEFT IS JUST A SHELL AND ANOTHER BUTLINS SUPPORT SLOT SO WHERE IN ALL THIS DO I FIT AMONG THE TRAGICALLY SHIT? STAND IN LINE OR DISAPPEAR AND JOIN THE REBEL FACTION'S SNEERS? UNCONDITIONED TO THE DIRGE OF YOUR GENERIC LAZY SURGE BLIND ACCEPTANCE, PUBLIC VOTES REPRODUCED AS THE SAME FEW NOTES
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AS I STAND AND GAZE AT THE STARS THE SAME STARS THAT WE USED TO WATCH WHEN I WAS YOUNG I GET TO THINK ABOUT EVERYTHING, AND HOW IT COULD HAVE BEEN I KNOW IT WON'T BRING YOU BACK I'VE TRIED IN MY DREAMS SO MANY TIMES BUT THERE'S NOTHING THAT CAN FILL THIS VOID THAT'S LEFT AND KNOWING WHAT WE'VE MISSED WE SAT AND WATCHED YOU FADE AWAY ON THOSE BEAUTIFUL WARM SPRING DAYS BUT THE COLDNESS IN OUR HEARTS COULD NEVER WARM THE SOUL AND MELT THE TEARS WE WERE SO BRAVE AND I JUST WISH THAT WE COULD HAVE SHOWN TRUE EMOTION ONCE IN OUR LIVES BUT NOW IT'S TOO LATE NOW EVERYONE HAS SAID GOODBYE GONE THEIR SEPARATE WAYS, GROWN UP AND GOT THEIR OWN LIVES THE OLD HOUSE LEFT ABANDONED FULL OF MEMORIES AND GHOSTS OF OUR PAST, ARE YOU STILL WAITING THERE? LOST AND ALONE, NOT KNOWING IF ANYONE REMEMBERS YOU OR IF THEY EVER CARED

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released January 2, 2011

All songs written & performed by Mark Ayling 2009

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Mark Ayling UK

A lifelong drummer, Mark Ayling has branched out into the world of acoustic music. Discarding the usual folk/acoustic influences such as Bob Dylan and Woody Guthrie, Mark takes his inspiration from artists as diverse as The Jam, New Model Army, The Specials, Motorhead and Joy Division, creating a sound that has the energy of punk whilst retaining the melodic elements of the acoustic guitar. ... more

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